WHEW!

Whew, I never thought I can have that kind of an effect on people. Nasanay kasi akong ako ang umiiyak.

H&K just gave me the link to his new blog which supposedly talks about how he really feels. Kinda like a blog for me where he can rant and say anything about me - he loves me, he is pain, that sorta thing.

And it pains me so much to see him in despair. I dunno. I never thought I could exude that much appeal to anybody. I ain't really gorgeous you know. I ain't the type of person or gay you'd normally go gaga with. Have you seen me? Gosh, if you did, you'd be having nightmares by now.

But H&K has me wondering... and questioning. Maybe I am what I think I am not.

God, I dunno what to do. I love H&K still and everytime I look at his pictures I kinda regret what happened. Why it had to end. But half of me knows this is the right way. If I stayed longer I'd end up hurting him so much. The tragedy is unbearable I know coz I have been there.

I just hope he can move on soon. There are lots of guys out there... or girls too. He doesn't deserve me, he has to find someone else, someone better. I know it's gonna be hard. But hey, the only way to go is forward.