IT IS NOT JUST YOU

Talk about rejection. At least somebody has the guts to tell it straight to your face. Not like this, like I am in the dark, trying to figure out what direction I'll be heading. Not even a shadow to talk to.

Last night after work, Emor, me and a co-worker/friend, had a few drinks at some bar just across of Eastwood City. We had some laughs and talks and updates on what were happening in our respective classes. You see, this co-worker/friend had been separated from Emor and me and the rest of the class because she (she's a girl btw) had to undergo a different training, or something. So that was it - a few drinks, laughters and stuff.

Part of the conversation was Emor's supposedly denial of his crush/fling with Mr. D*. He insists he doesn't like him up to now but ohhh... you can almost smell the hormones between them like a melting chocolate bar on a heated pan. And it hurts.

So I am finally waking up from this dream. I am forcing myself to. It's really obvious that he ain't interested whatsoever in me. We are just gonna friends. It's gonna hurt but I'll still try.

Talking about rejections, as Bhe (former H&K - Bhe is more cute. We still call each other Bhe) has written on his blog. He did not pass the audition for a singing contest. He's great by the way. He has a nice voice. The judges weren't just listening. I got lost there...

Anyhow, as I was saying, this Emor-thingy is also a rejection. I got rejected and I haven't even tried it yet. If you are an avid reader of my blog you'd probably get my drift. For those who couldn't then you'd have to read all my posts... Hahaha. Just kidding. Let me put it this way. I am the type who easily gives up. I hate challenges. If I feel that a person has no feeling whatsoever for me, I easily and sometimes automatically stop dreaming or even thinking about the idea of a relationship.

There... Argh

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I am still in the office. My shift ended an hour ago. Emor and me are gonna be sleeping here again. I can't even remember for how many times now...

*Mr. D - a guy who I think is gay. hahaha