10.21.2005

It has been ages since I posted something here. Did you miss me guys?
Well, I have. ;p

If it wasn't for a blog link going around the office email, I would have not remembered this blog of mine. I told myself, "Hey, I just remembered, I have a blog!" Stupid huh?!

I think you should visit his blog. Here's the link: www.ihatecofi.blogspot.com
It is a good read though I warn you, reserve a lot of understanding and be as open-minded as you can be. You'll need it if you don't want to end posting nasty comments on the site. Hahaha...

Well a lot has happened. I have been too occupied with work, with moving on from a heartache and with new boyfriend.

Yes! You heard it right. I have a new boyfriend. Name's Robbie. Met him through a friend. Hahaha... 10.21.2005. He's really sweet. He gave two boxes of Ferrero on our first date. We also watched "Corpse Bride" at Gateway. How romantic, right? Hahaha... He's only 18 by the way and still in college.

Two days ago we went to Olonggapo with some friends, one of them being my ex. We went to Subic and some resort (forgot the name but I think it starts with OCEAN...) the following day. Although we had a fight, actually two fights, we are fine now. And I've grwon to love him so much more. I just hope he feels the same way after what happened. Nonetheless I am positive this is it. He is my last dance and after him, I'll forever dance alone. Well, at least I promised myself.

Oh well.

Maw and Shopping

I don't know what to fee anymore. Maw and I are back together but it seems like we ain't. I love Maw, no question about that but lately, after what happened, everything is just so unclear. Sometimes I wanna scream and tell, "what the fuck is wrong?" But I can't. I love him too much to do that.

Now I don't even hear from him anymore. A mere text would have been fine but his silence makes me wonder if he really does me, if what he told me is true, if he even care about me.

I conditioned myself that I'd lose him soon. I try to hide my despair and just get busy with work and coffee - my only refuge. I just hope I get better in time.

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Anyways, I am in Gateway now to shop for something to wear later. Rome is having his birtday and he invited me to go to out with his friends. I did not do laundry for the past week so I don't have a choice but to buy me new clothes. Good thing it's pay day.

Maybe shopping will do me good and somehow relieve me of this pain that just won't go away. No matter how I think of other things, my heart still shouts, "Maw." And I don't even know if he feels the same anymore. ;(