New Guy

April 29 - came new boyfriend.
Name - Zeus
Meet him at DL

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So I am here at Yes (Recto) with the new guy. He seems so nonp-chalant about my existence. We're with his friends... or rather, I am with him and his friends drinking beer. I wish I were alone with himl. We'll do more than drink and listen to some lame music the DJ is playing.

Argh! His friend (gay may I add) just gave me a flower made of some cigarette paper (Marlboro Lights). Told me to keep it and put in on a vase. Hahaha... Sweet but not my type. So not.

Argh! Now I am alone with his friends. Bf just left. Where? Haven't got the vaguest clue. Hope he gets back before boredom slaps me. You know me, I easily get bored.

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Zeus? I like him. No, I love him... a lot. But I don't quite know if he feels the same way for me... I mean for real. He says he does and all through text but... I'll stop there... I'm going paranoid again. Or maybe he does. Nahhh... Who am I kidding? Argh! I am gonna burst into tears any moment now. Must stop. Brew, control yourself! Oh God, I am talking to myself. Am I developing a split personality disorder? Scary.

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I just told him I love you. NO REACTION. Not even a single word. This must mean something. Does he love me for real? What do you think? Please help me.