Tanga Ba Ako?

Just came home from new guy's place. Guess where? Bulacan. After insisting that I go with him home, he finally agreed.

He was a bit drunk, maybe that's the reason he agreed that I come with him home.

So I met his mom. Cool. She was having a merienda (daw) when we arrived. I asked for a white tee for sleeping. He shares his room with his brother so when we got there, his brother was already sleeping on his bed. I settled on Zeus bed while his brother wone up and went to the sala to watch TV. Zeus said his bro is quite a shy-type. So I was hoping Zeus would hop in the bed I was on. I was wrong. He settled on his brother's bed about two feet away from where I was on. Then he put off the lights and off he went to sleep.

And me? I was awake for like hours waiting for him to transfer beside me. But he did not. I was texting him but he wouldn't answer. He was already asleep. I threw a pillow on him but he didn't even move an inch. He was asleep... really asleep.

I wasn't sleepy and I was still hoping he'd hop in to the bed I was on until his brother went in the room and slept beside Zeus. I had no choice but to force myself to sleep.

Morning came and the first thing he told me or rather texted me was, and I quote, "Bangon na!" He hasn't got any sweetness bone on him. I always have to make the first move.

We went to church, my second time this year, around 10 am. When we got home noone was there so I waited fro him to make the first move and try to kiss me. But he did not.

After a while he asked if I wanted to sleep. I said okay. But sleep we did not. We made love... or at least that's what I wanna believe we did.

After that, he sent me home.

On the way home I texted him asking if he really love me or what. The same question I texted him last night but he hadn't replied because he was already sleeping and still did not reply to when he awoke.

Guess what he said. I quote, "Bsta pag-iicpan kong mabuti ung mga isasagot ko s mga tnong mo wabyu."

It broke my heart. But I love him too much. I told him that I'll give him until midnight to decide on the faith of our relationship, that I would not text him until he makes his decision later. I hope he chooses to love me. I really hope so.