The rain has stopped. I don’t know if it’ll be for a long time but I am happy that it did. I was so bruised and flogged with pain that I hadn’t seen it coming. I hadn’t prognosticated that it’ll happen, that my wish would actually come true. I just hope it’ll be forever. If only I hadn’t known better, that forever is just a fantasy.
But just the same I am joyful that he had made himself felt. Again. With those words I see hope, hope that I can hold on to and smile even for a moment. Those words were music to my ears. My shaking, lymphatic body breathes life again.
It’s hard to put it in words. What I feel right now is more than I can grasp. I smile and cry at the same time.
Could this be a start of a new beginning? Or am I just making a tabernacle of dreams and hopes? Whatever this is, I will stay in it as long as I can, relieve the memories we shared and spent my time here waiting, hoping he’ll come back.
He gave me his number too which made me so happy I could almost hear the rumpus of church bells in that quiet lounge room on the office. Reading that email from him was like walking to the stairways of heaven. Light and joyful. I would have yelped for joy. If only there was no one in that room sleeping. But just the same, my heart was ecstatic, it was suddenly electrified with love.
Am I insane? Can this be true? If this is a dream then I would never wanna wake up.
*sigh
But just the same I am joyful that he had made himself felt. Again. With those words I see hope, hope that I can hold on to and smile even for a moment. Those words were music to my ears. My shaking, lymphatic body breathes life again.
It’s hard to put it in words. What I feel right now is more than I can grasp. I smile and cry at the same time.
Could this be a start of a new beginning? Or am I just making a tabernacle of dreams and hopes? Whatever this is, I will stay in it as long as I can, relieve the memories we shared and spent my time here waiting, hoping he’ll come back.
He gave me his number too which made me so happy I could almost hear the rumpus of church bells in that quiet lounge room on the office. Reading that email from him was like walking to the stairways of heaven. Light and joyful. I would have yelped for joy. If only there was no one in that room sleeping. But just the same, my heart was ecstatic, it was suddenly electrified with love.
Am I insane? Can this be true? If this is a dream then I would never wanna wake up.
*sigh
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