AND SO I THOUGHT IT'S OVER

We can't have it all, really. Okay, so I found my Pussy, finally, last night. My TL* had it and he returned it to me yesterday. PIP* is also over so right now I am taking in calls. I should be happy, right? Right? Well I am not.

When I came in to office today, I knew that the list of people to be transfered to another program has already been finalized. More or less I had an idea of who the people were before I went to office. And unfortunately most of them were already my friends. I arrived atr work 4 hours before my shift so I had plenty of time to mingle and ask questions to people about what was happening, about the people who are going to transfered.

While I was having my cigarette downstairs I saw Mr.D (remember him?) and the rest of his team mates who were having a general assembly at Gloria Jeans (some coffee shop). He was waving goodbye to me. I asked why though I already knew the reason. Emor was with him. They were talking (heart to heart I think) about something. They both looked devastated. You see Emor is staying in the program while Mr.D is leaving.

I suddenly had a change of mood. I started my day right actually. I went to SM, had a haircut and watched Ocean's Twelve (I think the first one is better by the way). I was so excited to go to work since I was gonna take in calls. I haven't been taking calls since the 22nd of December, thus the excitement. But then when I saw Jeff and the rest of the peeps, I felt sad. I think this is unfair. You see, the people who are gonna be transfered had been decided through a raffle. Mr.D is doing great in his job. So are the rest of the people. I feel guilty. I should be in their shoes right now.

*sigh

And so I thought this nightmare is over, that everything is gonna be fine. Well, another news broke my supposedly happy face. By next week another bunch of people, around 7 or 8 will be shed off from the program. Same process. Raffle. So there's a big chance that I am gonna be one of them. The news is really leaving everyone hanging. Nobody can be too sure.

Well whatever happens I just hope I will still be employed after next week. Can't afford to be jobless now.