I Just Wanna Die

"Lately I have had the strangest feeling. With no vivid reason here to find. Yet the thought of losing you's been hanging, round my mind..."

"Well I'm a man of many wishes, hope my premonition misses. What I really feel my eyes won't let me hide. Coz they always start to cry..."

"And this time could mean GOODBYE..."

*sigh

I don't want to cry anymore. But I can't let my eyes stop. I have been out these past few days... Outta my mind. Been frequently drunk after work. Pillows wet in the morning. This is terrible. And all this because of a guy?! F*ck!

I just wish I could disappear for a time, heal myself of this broken heart and find a way to continue life. But reality is on my face reminding me of the past. It haunts like a cold wind behind my back. I feel shivers on my body. I want to run. I want to scream yet I can't. And all I could do is burst into tears and cry and think how pathetic I am right now.

I just wanna die...