EVERYTHING'S SEEMS TO BE MESSED UP. BUT I AM GLAD AM MOVING FORWARD

So far so good with the effort to move on from Him. He has controlled me for so many months that I haven't had the time to notice the others that truly love me. What made it easier is the hate that I am feeling against him right now. He had ignored my text messages, he got mad because I meddled with whatever affair he had with a guy I met months before and to make matters worst, or easier, that guy sent me an email saying he was very upset because of what I alledgedly told Cairo. Whatever it was that I said or I didn't say, I am somehow thankful it happened. Because now, it's easier to move on from Him. Like he puts it, "I have moved on so far away from that point of my life."

I will not be pretentious and convince you all that I am moving smoothly. Oh no, it's as hard as the day he broke up with me. I still am having doubts if I can do this or if along the way I'll be my old self again and give up. I am even thinking of deleting my Downelink account so as not to hear him or see him again. Also Cairo. Whatever it was that he told the guy, it definitely made him so mad that when Him found out about it, he immediately sent me that fucking email.

Am I making it sound complicated? Not with the lack of names and everything. I am just avoiding more trouble.

And apparently, this guy named Christian, from Downelink who said he liked my pics and he even gave me his number, told me he hated me after I called him over his cellphone. He said I sounded too gay. Like duh?! What was he expecting? That fucking asshole didn't read my profile. I did not say I am a bi or straight there. What is it with these stupid people getting mad at something too petty? I hate them. Now I am becoming a bitch. As I write this post I feel my blood rushing... It just makes me feel so mad.

Enough of this madness. My day-off wasn't so bad. I met up with Bry, this so wonderful nursing student. I slept at his place.

So much for now. I'll be logging in in 40 minutes. Systems all up and I am ready to go. I hate my shift this week by the way. It's 6am till 3pm. I miss my old shift which was 11:30pm till 8:30pm. And it's only the start of the week.

Valentine's Day is near. Now, who would be my date?

*Sigh...