Saturday, July 24, 2004

APATHY ON A FRIGID TWILIGHT OF A SATURDAY

The night is cold. There is indifference in the air. The rain earlier seemed to have awashed the background hushed. The whole village is at rest, except me. There are the constant hushing of fast moving cars outside the village. I can hear them from here, my room. At times, drag races are held in that avenue. Not tonight, I think. The road is slippery and wet from the rain. Too dangerous to race perhaps. But then again, it’s still early. Races usually begin around one in the morning when racers have the avenue for themselves.

It’s Saturday night. I should be out partying and getting drunk. Of course, hooking up with a gorgeous guy after the party is always a bonus. Instead I am here, in my room, on my looney-toon inspired covered bed, trapped in this apathy.

Boredom keeps me company during sleepless nights. Nights like this. This is my problem. I couldn’t stay idle for just one second. My system longs for action, for work, anything to keep me busy. I just could not pinpoint the hub of this dissatisfaction, of this boredom. Somehow I miss being in college again when overnights for reports, projects and papers are as often as blinking an eye. I miss those times. Especially tonight.

If I had work I wouldn’t be like this. Probably. Especially if I work on graveyard shoft. By then my insomnia would be finally out into good use.

Ouch! Mosquitoes are feasting on me. Got to dispose all my laundry tomorrow. My room is a mess. And this bedsheet. Gotta replace it with a new one. Maybe that Garfield printed one will be nice.

Garfield! My favorite cartoon character ever. Used to draw his face on every notebook, sheets of paper, anywhere back in high school. I saw this huge Garfield stuff toy earlier at a mall. It’s being raffled off for the showing of that Garfield movie. I have to get it.

Oh well. So much for this journal. I will take a smoke and maybe sleep after. I hope…

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