HIS FAVOURITE CONCUBINE

I have been awake for almost 24 hours already. Argh!

Did tons of laundry, stacked in the garage for almost two weeks already that left my arms numb and my body smelling like laundry soap, last night. After which I talked to angel (from my previous post). He sent me an sms message and asked if I could call him that night. I declined at first saying that my cousin was using the phone line for the internet. But he pleaded and I, being the push-over that I am, was left with no choice. He was/is just so irresistable. I don't know what spell he used on me or what he has that keeps me holding on and hoping that he would eventually realize that he loves me, or something. However I try to forget him or avoid him, I just couldn't do it and it always makes me feel happy and inlove whenever I talk to him.

So I asked my cousin if I could use the phone for 30 minutes and fortunately, he agreed.

Angel said things that made me more confused and kept me hopeful... uhmm... more like, hoping. He likes me and he misses me. He loves talking to me. He even called me his favourite concubine.

Now I don't know if I should be flattered or what but it definitely left a mark in my mind and heart. Our conversation ended around 2AM, almost an hour, when he decided to hit the shower, even teasing me to join him. Haha... that!, I would gladly do. It would be my pleasure. But it was a joke as he clarified immediately. Waaa...

He asked for my ex-boyfriend's number though. He said he liked my X's pictures and how they were taken. He's so creative. But I am sure that's just a guise for something deeper. What the heck! He's my X anyway... An X. Meant to be forgotten. Move on Ian, live... forget... The last time I texted him, which was like a week ago, he replied, "Can't you take a hint?!" Argh! Obviously, he doesn't want anything to do with me anymore. Came as a blow but I had to face it. Hurts... Never texted him after that.

Angel can have him if he wants to. In fact, he can easily have him. Them two would look great together. I will just have to keep this feeling for Angel at bay. For how long, I ain't sure.