TWO CONDOM WRAPPERS UNDER MY BED

I am officially 14 hours awake and I still can't get myself to sleep. Just came out of the shower in hope that cold water would make me sleepy but it didn't do any good. Instead, I am wide awake writing this entry.

I also cleaned my room before the shower. The two-week old bed sheet had to go. So were the pillow cases. I also stacked up some books scattered on the floor and threw away a couple of condom wrappers from under my bed. Haha. I am gonna try to clean more when I get up later and maybe do my laundry too, if I am not too tired.


Last night...

It was more like early morning yesterday. I was talking to this guy I met at Friendster.com. I first met his friend who lives in London. we exchanged messages to each other for a couple of weeks until he introduced me to his friend in Manila, the guy I was talking to last night.

He is 20 and stands 6'2" and is a college student at some high-end university in town. Apparently, he claims he's straight but is open-minded. Too open-minded perhaps that he is open to the possibility of a relationship, me and him. Haha.

I doubt him of course. For a could of reasons. First, he's straight, or at least he claims to be. And for all I know he just wants me to give him a head. Although I could do that even without the relationship. Haha. Second, he was drinking when we were exchanging SMS messages, though he told me he isn't drunk. He even called me to prove he wasn't at the mercy of alcohol yet. He also said he was serious about the "relationship."

So I'm meeting him on Monday for a cup of coffee and some chit-chat of course. He told me I could also drop by his place in Makati after. He lives with his family so he asked me to be very discreet about the "relationship" if ever I were to go to his place. As if there is a "relationship." But I am gonna meet him for sure but I ain't counting on anything. Not just yet. I'm gonna keep my guards alert.

I've seen his type. Straight guys can be crumpled into two types: the ones who are just for the money and some sex and the ones who too friendly and leave you broken in the end like a fallen chandelier from above the ceiling, scattered and broken.


Wanted: Boyfriend

I have been loving people who don't love me back for so long and I think it is about time I get some loving for myself.

Remember that angel I was talking about in one of my previous posts? It is confirmed. He doesn't like me, at all. I do understand him. He's too good for me. He has a sexy boyfriend and a happy relationship. I am not the one to ruin it. I have even erased his number from my phone book so I couldn't bug him no more. And the piece of paper I used to write down his number? I tore it to pieces and dumped it straight to the trash which the garbage collector will take come Saturday or maybe Wednesday.

But I still feel the same about him. I still love him. His eyes, his lips, his, everything. And here I go again... If only I were good enough for him. I would have had the guts to steal him away from his boy. Hayyy... Now I am dreaming...

Life is such a puzzle isn't it? You love people, but they don't love you back, not even an inch of attraction. And those people who just aren't your type are the ones professing their love to you! It really doesn't work the way we want it to.

So I have decided to try to give these people a chance. Who knows, maybe one of these days I'll finally have a boyfriend.

So all you willing bachelors out there, come and get me.

Haha...