I Said I Was Graduating

Two nights ago, I sent a message to my mom, using a borrowed phone for mine was still damaged, asking how they were and all that and suddenly mama threw me a very unexpected question. "Love, gragraduate ka ba ngayong sem?" Duh! I have been telling her that since I entered college. That no matter what I will graduate on time. and now this question! I suddenly felt distrusted by my own parents. What the hell did they think of me? That all I do here in college was to get drunk, have sex and burn my lungs out with packs and packs of cigarette? Although I admit I do all those things but not on an addictive kind of way. I know my priorities and getting outta college and landing on a good-paying job is one of them.
But I couldn't blame them. My grades are low [though they're passing], I'm always not home [they cause my brothers tell them], and even in high school I was the happy-go-lucky kind of guy. In other words I don't look like the type who would graduate salutatorian in high school. But I did. I proved everyone wrong.
But college is a very different arena. Making sipsip to teachers aren't enough. You have to couple it with enthusiasm and high exam results.
And now that I am graduating I couldn't wait to get out of college. Four years ago I was just this little unknown creature our of Romblon who passed the UPCAT along with other four. But now I have grown to be who I am now - gay and proud.
But no matter what I still love my parents. Why wouldn't I in the first place. They're eating cans and cans of sardines there everyday while I here get to choose between McDonalds and Jolibee. Sometimes I feel that I am a very inconsiderate son. I spend my allowance on useless things and my parents and siblings are there in the province without anything new. I really feel ashamed of myself. But I can't help it really. I have tried to spend less before but all efforts have failed.
That's why I promise to graduate so I could return all what my parents sacrificed for me and my siblings. I really love them and I will always will. I feel like crying now. The thought of them suffering hurts and the thought that they're suffering to give the best education hurts more.
I will be graduating. I will. I promise my parents that.