Have You Ever

Have you ever love somebody so much it makes you cry?
Have you ever wanted something so bad you can't sleep at night?
Have you ever tried to find the words but they don't come out right?
Have you ever?

Have you? Well, I have. With Robbie it's that way. It's like I have so much love to give and so much nice things to say but when I start to, words are just not enough to express how I truly feel. It's more than "I love you's" and "I miss you's." It's so much more, something intangible, something spiritual.

You know that feeling when you're so full of love that it drives you nuts at night thinking how you can make your relationship better? God, am I experiencing it now! Every night I find it hard to sleep because Robbie would fill my thoughts with his smile, the way he raises his eyebrow, the way he makes face everytime I say something nice about him, the way he stares at me with the most beautiful eyes in the world. How can one sleep, right?

This is maybe too much of a love but like I said before, I am willing to give everything, to take the risk. Before I wonder If I can really give my life to someone, If i'd be willing to die for someone and everytime it would come to that, I always have had second thoughts. But now I know. I can tell everybody that I am willing to die for Robbie, if circumstances demands it, I will because I love him so much.

*sigh

Can't wait for my next dayoff. We plan to go shopping and watch movies (a lot).
Luv lots Robbie. Mwah!