I don't know what to fee anymore. Maw and I are back together but it seems like we ain't. I love Maw, no question about that but lately, after what happened, everything is just so unclear. Sometimes I wanna scream and tell, "what the fuck is wrong?" But I can't. I love him too much to do that.
Now I don't even hear from him anymore. A mere text would have been fine but his silence makes me wonder if he really does me, if what he told me is true, if he even care about me.
I conditioned myself that I'd lose him soon. I try to hide my despair and just get busy with work and coffee - my only refuge. I just hope I get better in time.
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Anyways, I am in Gateway now to shop for something to wear later. Rome is having his birtday and he invited me to go to out with his friends. I did not do laundry for the past week so I don't have a choice but to buy me new clothes. Good thing it's pay day.
Maybe shopping will do me good and somehow relieve me of this pain that just won't go away. No matter how I think of other things, my heart still shouts, "Maw." And I don't even know if he feels the same anymore. ;(
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hi..you have to be ready for anything that myt happen. I believe you can survive it namn kung sakaling mawawala na sya ng tuluyan.
Correct ka dyan shopping ka or look for things na makapaglilibang ang isip mo para namn di mo maisip lagi yun..Good luck my dear..
Oh by the way it's really nice visiting your blog. It's inspirational in a way and boy you've got a fantastic lyf. Ako ata wala ng kasense sense sana manlang makaramdam rin ako ng ganyan para namn maramdamang tao ako..Ü
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