Frustraions and My Nokia 6680* (*still hoping)

*sigh

It is our first monthsary and I am not with Maw. He is out there clubbing and I am stuck in this training for another rproduct that will surely blow my mind off. I wish I could be with him, I wish I could celebrate this special day with him. But where am I? Here in the office, almost sleepy and droopy.

Honestly, I do not feel good right now. As much as I want to say I am happy, I am not. The fact that makes it all terrible is that I do not know why. Why I am like this. Why I am sad.

And to make matters worst, I did not get Monday off next week. Instead my days off will be Wednesday and Thursday. What would I do during those days? It is not like Malate will be open. I just hope Maw will be availbale during those times.

Well, it is not that bad actually. Three days from now is the pay day and I hope I can buy that Nokia 6680 I have always wanted to buy.

Makes me all depressed all of a sudden. :'(

Work Again

I am at work again. ;p

Good thing I can use the computer here in this training room to access websites outside the company. This is prohibited, if caught. So I am quite conscious. But hey, as long as I can do it, then why not. Right? Hahaha... I am the ultimate pasaway.

Anyways, the discussion will start any moment. Gotta get my stuff ready. ;p I'll keep you posted. Mwah!

It's gonna be out first month later. I'm excited. Maw's on his way back to Manila. Wahehehe... ;p

And by the way, this picture is VJ Utt's. Feast your eyes. It's his butt.

It's Raining But I am Sweating

The rain was so hard ealier. I was with Rocky and his supposedly "friend" in Starbucks Araneta when the rain started pouring. After the coffee we went inside Gateway and ate at KFC. I did not finish the food since both of them were hurrying up for a movie they were supposed to watch at 7pm. And I did not like the food I ordered. A total mistake. Should have had Jollibee Burger Steak instead. unfortunately, there was no Jollibbee in the mall. Argh! Still craving for one.

When I went out the mall, the rain still pouring, this time, harder. And the cabs were all taken. After about 30 minutes, the rain mellowed down so I took the chance and walked to the jeepney terminal, which by the way was far from the mall. Good thing the rain kinda cooperating.

Now I am in the office, still sweating. Isn't it ironic? It is raining but it's hot!

Another day/night in the office... I hope everything's gonna be okay.

And Maw is heading to Tagaytay tonight at 9. Some office thingy. I am not sure when he'll be back. Maybe Saturday or Sunday. Hmm... I'm gonna miss him. And we fight a lot these past few weeks. And our monthsary is near. *sigh

I wonder how we'll celebrate it. Hmmm...

Jollibee Meal # 13

Just wanna say thanks to all my friends who support me. Yes, Me and Maw are okay now. We talked yesterday about what happened and somehow, unknowingly, everything's fine again. All it took was a single smile... and then a lot of smile followed and now we're fine.

Earlier I stopped by his office before work and brought him my fave (as of the moment) burger steak from Jollibee. I have been going gaga over the food for weeks now. Hmmm... Maybe I am pregnant... Hahahaha... Impossible!

Anyway's gotta get ready for work. I still have 30mins. Maybe I'll eat something... Gosh, I'm again craving for that burger steak...

*watery mouth

Brew in a Sad Mood

A big *sigh....

I had a fight with Maw last night. My bad... All mine. And now he's breaking up with me (I think but still hoping I'm wrong).

*sigh

Now Brewing

This photo was taken one rainy night at while me and Maw were eating at Tapa King inside the new Convergys building along Commonwealth Avenue. I was eating longanisa then. Hahahaha... The real one!

Salary Day

God!

Can’t wait for the next payday. I am not really sure if it’s gonna be exactly on the 15th which is Monday or this Friday. Around the office, the news is out that it’s gonna be this Friday. Now, I don’t wanna get my hopes that high, do I? So I’m leaving room for disappointment. Haha…

I am gonna be receiving relatively a lot this payday and I am planning to go on a shopping spree. Gonna buy new sneakers, formal clothes, shirts and stuff. I am just so excited. Then when I get my official ID from work I’m gonna get me one of those credit cards and buy me a new phone. Hahaha… I guess I hadn’t got enough sleep coz I’m still dreaming right now.

Hmmm… come to think about it. I hadn’t have any dreams lately. Well, none that I remember. Or maybe I just forgot. I wonder…
Oh well, gotta get to work. Though there ain’t work yet. Nobody’s calling yet. Those Americans must still be asleep. It’s still midnight there. I’m sure most of them are snoring. Wahehehe…

QUEER METRO - RESPECT YA'LL

Cairo's making a new clan which will be named Queer Metropolitan (QM). This is a bi-male, sun cellular group. There is only one rule, as far as I know, that is being enforced by Cairo. And that is RESPECT. Makes sense, don't you think?

Talk about respect. Come to think about it. As one of my friends would say it, gays or PLU's are twice mariginalized. We are marginalized by straight people and, sad to say, by our fellow PLU's. Not that I am excluding myself from among the gulity, in fact, I am, sometimes, one of those who discrimate. No matter what I say here or how I say it, I will be guilty of this sin.

As we all know, there are several types of gay in our society. There are those who feels comfortable wearing girls dress and shoes and make up. These is what I would like to call, the more daring ones. There are also those who prefer to be discreet. Some people would call them silahis or "those still inside the closet." And there are those who swings along those types. Too many to mention, as they say.

So I guess the it all boils down to RESPECTing each other. It's not like we are that different from each other. Come to think about it, we all look for the same thing - Boys, straight or otherwise. And this is the main reason why I joined the group. It is not only because Cairo invited me. It is mostly because, I look for the same thing, I want to achieve the same thing, and I want us to respect each other. Maybe one day, we will earn RESPECT from the rest if we all start to respect each other, and ourselves of course.

COMING OUT FROM A LONG HIATUS

Wow!

Did anybody miss me?

I know what you are thinking. “Where the hell is Brew?” I am sorry for the long hiatus. I have been busy with job-hunting, with the clan (c4m, which by the way is no longer active and I have already quit), and boys. So, let’s start with the job. Fortunately I have been “re-called” by eTelecare Global Solutions but I was/am assigned to a different program. This one’s relatively easier that my previous. So I have been with the company again for a month now. Yes! I am once again a yuppie! I liked the sound of that. The free ice tea’s gone though. It has been replaced by pomelo juice (though, some csa’s like to call it pink lemonade. Haha..) Coffee’s still free though. All in all thing’s really did not change that much for the almost four months I’ve been out, or rather, kicked out from the company.

Then there’s c4m (Cubicla for Men), the clan which I was a member of before I finally quit a couple of weeks back. The reason? Maybe I’ll discuss that later. Just maybe. So the clan held so many meetings and gathering that I was out the house almost everyday. I usually spent the night either at Rocky’s of some other else’s place to get drunk and if I was lukcy, have sex or at at least a flingmate. I loved the clan. I met so many cute and funny people and also met a lot of friends. And when I say a lot, I mean A LOT. But there are four people in the clam whom I got really close with, until now. They are Xander, Dion, Rocky and Aldrin. We call ourselves c5m and then later CINCO. We even got accused of sub-clanning which alledgedly resulted to the clan’s demise. But we were/are more than a group. We are friends. Close friends. But when I got busy with work I had to spend less and less time with them though I try to make it to a point to see them at least once a week.

Then there’s boys. Every gay’s favorite topic. Haha. I had a boyfriend from the clan. His code’s Flingxxx. He’s a real charmer. He’s tall, dark and cute. Plus he’s so nice and loving. Every moment with him was bliss. He also gay though discreet. And the thing I liked most about him is that, he loves me, so much so as to let me go when I wanted to be free again. I know it hurt him like hell and I will forever be guilty. During the course of our relationship, I met Ryan – atypical Atenean guy. I feel in love with him so quick. That is the main reason why I had to leave Flingxxx. I know I love him but he just ain’t for me. I know I will only hurt him if I stayed. Going away was the best option, for both of us. Call me selfish but that is how I am.

As of the moment, I am happy and contented with Ryan. We are compatible both inside and outside the bed. Do you get my drift? He’s nice and caring though he’s not as sweet as I would want him to be. But I love him. I do.

I won’t promise I will update this blog as often as I used to but I will try my best to post at least one article (if you can call this one as such) a week at least.

Ta-ta for now.

I am actually in the office waiting for someone to call. Gosh, I am so sleepy. Bye.

P.S. Ryan’s gonna pick me up later after work. (12am MNL)