Series of Unfortunate Events

Life really has its ups and downs. And the downs are always there to get you no matter how you try to prevent everything from tearing apart. The fact is, everything has its expiration date.

Thus, this entry aptly titled, “Series of Unfortunate Events” ripped off from the recent movie about three children who’s life depended on each talent they have to be able to survive the cruel and nasty world that they young mind and soul have to face. Isn’t it sad that these so called unfortunate events are not only confined within the square of our TV screens? It’s not something we can just stop with a remote control when we feel we could not go on watching the kind of cruelty these little children are undergoing.

And so my life – a series of unfortunate events. Well at least these past few months have been.

First on the list is/was my job. Okay, I got fired because of poor grades. The worst part was, I was required to pay a bond worth Php 22,000 + which by the way I did not pay until now. Back then I was decided not to pay anything. In fact I did not get my last pay because the company strategically fired me before pay day. I thought it would be easy applying to other call centers thinking that since I am from a relatively famous company, other call centers would readily accept me. And they did actually. I passed every exam there is, every interviews and such. But they never called me back whenever they get to that part where they would call up my references. I think my previous company is sabotaging my future. And I believed my TL (tem leader) when he told me he would put up a good word for me. Yeah right! Liar!

Weeks after my first day of work, I broke up with Jerome planning to focus more on the one I love, Wabyu (obviously not his real name). He cried but I had to do it. I love Wabyu and I intend to spend the rest of my life with him. But apparently, Wabyu caught me. He read Jerome’s messages in my phone while I was sleeping after we had sex. When I awoke from the deep slumber, there he was, almost crying. And then he broke up with me.

The next thing I knew Jerome and Wabyu were already dating. And yes, something happened between them. It hurt me so bad that being friends with them is like piercing myself with a needle. Lots of them. But I couldn’t do anything, could I? I did not have the right to be jealous and mad for it was my fault in the first place. I ruined everything between the guy I really loved after my first bf and me.

It was a road full f bumps and rocks after that. Jerome was telling me everything. Even what happened between them inside a movie house. They became lovers for I think a week. Then some bad news, really bad news came.

Wabyu got some girl pregnant. He got a girl pregnant while we were together. Ouch! Talk about Karma. I thought I was the only liar, I thought I was the bad guy, I thought I was the only one who had sex with other guys while in the relationship. Wabyu did what I did too. He was at fault too. And now he got a girl pregnant.

Jerome told me all about it. In fact Wabyu is getting married to this girl. At a young age of 21. But I guess he wasn’t really meant for me. He still thinks he’s straight, though I somehow believe him.

But it hurt. A lot. After that night when he discovered about Jerome, he told me that he was willing to risk everything for me, he was gonna spend the rest of his life with me. What I don’t know was, he was having sex with that girl. And it was too late when I found out.

After Wabyu and Jerome, I met Athan (not his real name). Before we met he was telling me “I love you’s” and stuff. He was cute so I asked him if he wants to be lovers. He agreed. So we became lovers the day we met. The next day, I insisted on going home to Bulacan with him. After lots of pleads and all, he finally agreed to take me home with him. We slept on a separate bed though. But the next day I finally got to fuck him.

Before I left his house, I asked him if he really love me. Coz honeslty, his “I love you’s” and stuff was going out of stock when we finally met. He told me he would neet to think about it first. I gave him till midnight and before midnight I got the answer. I was not happy about it.

What I would know next would break my heart, again. He was denying that he was my ex. He’s been telling everyone we were just friends. Though I consider him an ex because what I felt for him was real and what I showed to him was me.

No. That’s not the end. Two weeks ago, I let my cousin use my only phone because I was using my Aunt’s MMS phone. When my cousin got back from Pangasinan, my phone was already damaged. The light won’t turn off even if I turn off the phone, thus, the battery’s draining so fast. And I did not even get to keep my Aunt’s phone. Now I am stuck with this damaged phone.

*sigh

Life, right?

After all these, I am decided to fix my life, find a new job and gain weight. So help me God.

And I hope the next series of my life will be more of a happy one.

Tanga Ba Ako?

Just came home from new guy's place. Guess where? Bulacan. After insisting that I go with him home, he finally agreed.

He was a bit drunk, maybe that's the reason he agreed that I come with him home.

So I met his mom. Cool. She was having a merienda (daw) when we arrived. I asked for a white tee for sleeping. He shares his room with his brother so when we got there, his brother was already sleeping on his bed. I settled on Zeus bed while his brother wone up and went to the sala to watch TV. Zeus said his bro is quite a shy-type. So I was hoping Zeus would hop in the bed I was on. I was wrong. He settled on his brother's bed about two feet away from where I was on. Then he put off the lights and off he went to sleep.

And me? I was awake for like hours waiting for him to transfer beside me. But he did not. I was texting him but he wouldn't answer. He was already asleep. I threw a pillow on him but he didn't even move an inch. He was asleep... really asleep.

I wasn't sleepy and I was still hoping he'd hop in to the bed I was on until his brother went in the room and slept beside Zeus. I had no choice but to force myself to sleep.

Morning came and the first thing he told me or rather texted me was, and I quote, "Bangon na!" He hasn't got any sweetness bone on him. I always have to make the first move.

We went to church, my second time this year, around 10 am. When we got home noone was there so I waited fro him to make the first move and try to kiss me. But he did not.

After a while he asked if I wanted to sleep. I said okay. But sleep we did not. We made love... or at least that's what I wanna believe we did.

After that, he sent me home.

On the way home I texted him asking if he really love me or what. The same question I texted him last night but he hadn't replied because he was already sleeping and still did not reply to when he awoke.

Guess what he said. I quote, "Bsta pag-iicpan kong mabuti ung mga isasagot ko s mga tnong mo wabyu."

It broke my heart. But I love him too much. I told him that I'll give him until midnight to decide on the faith of our relationship, that I would not text him until he makes his decision later. I hope he chooses to love me. I really hope so.