Freezing Monthsary

It's our first month anniversay and everything just seems fucked-up!

I know. It is my fault. I shouldn't be here in the office with Jen freezing up like a snow cap has fallen above me. I should be with Marvin just like I promised him. I should be hugging him right now wrapped in his big arms waering nothing but boxers soaked up with love and unforbidden sex. But where am I? I am in this fucking office who will soon force me to leave because of some freaking "right-sizing" the company is trying to pull up.

I love Marvin. Even Jen could attest to that, I think. But there are just things that are inevitable.

And now Marvin has turned into this drama queen I was once like and he's uncontrollable. He feels like I am with someone else right now because i didn't get his first call. Then he asks me If I really love him (YES!!!) and so on and so forth. Now he's gonna get drunk because of me. I am flattered and all but I don't want him to get hurt because he loves me.

Argh! I don't know what to do anymore. Maybe I'm too young to handle relationships. Maybe this ain't just my road...