Friday, April 16, 2004

Thoughts and Coffee Shops


I don't know. I was at Starbucks West Avenue last monday and I couldn't help but to feel depressed about a lot of things. Not that I have a lot to feel depressed about but it seems that whenever I am in a coffee shop especially when I am alone I always feel that. And eventhough I am with a friend I still felt that way.


I am graduating and of course I am happy but I am sure gonna miss a lot of things. That makes me sad. But as they say life must go on. But isn't it scary to move on not knowing what awaits in the horizon... or wherever? It scares me a lot that I could not find a job and be bum for a while. I want to work ASAP and earn my own money. That way I can support all my luho.


Back in high school right before college I was so excited to finally live on my own, away from my parents. Somehow thorugh college that went well for me. I manage my own time, my own allowance, nobody's telling me what to do, where to go or when to be at a certain place. That felt good really. But now that college is over I haven't got any clue what to do. Of course I know I should find a job but what will I do? How would I get one? Am I qualified? Though a lot of my friends, even my friends parents tell me that I am the type who has the big chance to succeed in life but where do I start?


Hayyy... I hope tomorrow brings me a new perspective in life. :)

Monday, April 05, 2004

Depression


I feel depressed. I am not sure why but it feels like I am all alone again. I should be happy in fact because I will be graduating this April and finally look for a work and support myself. And the thesis is near completion. All it needs are the transcripts of interviews and tala.... it's gonna be done. And to think I got a 1.0 for the thesis. Thanks to my partner really. I haven't done anything usueful to that thesis. Her name should be the only one printed there. She did most of the work, hard work in fact.


I still don't know why I am depressed. I was riding a jeepney home from UP suddenly I felt a tint of sadness. Not just a tint in fact but my body seemed to froze and my eyes wanted to burst into tears.

Maybe I'll just sleep and forget about this thing.