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I am a frustrated artist who finds refuge in bitterness and solitude. Angst is what I speak and love is what I hide. I never want to be seen naked for in nakedness there is truth and truth I am afraid of. Reality never seems to be fair, life in fact is iniquitous.

I like to put up a facade like a masked man in a party. I like to exude and air of mystery and fear. For in fear I earn respect and respect I treasure.

I like to play God once in a while, controlling the people who surround me. I love to twist emotions and bring out the insides.

I have found love but it left me suddenly for reasons until now I do not understand. He pierced right through everything that is me and left a broken arrow in my heart. But I let that happen because I loved him so sincerely. If there was a time I really loved someone, it would be that time. He rocked my world; sadly, he rocked me to my death.

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Disorganized Thoughts

I am at work. I came in this early just to post something. I really miss blogging - visiting other blogs, reading senseless thoughts (*winks) and stuff. I miss the people here.

Anyways, I think I owe all of you a lot of stories. I don't even know where to begin. Hmmm...

Well probably when I get all my thoughts straight and organized that's when I'll tell you guys all about the things that had happened during the time I was away (from the net).

But now I just wanna say I MISS ALL OF YOU!

Cheerio!

Moving On

Hey guys. I am finally moving on to another chapter of my life. View more @ http://mynameisbrew.blogspot.com/.

Thank you for your support.

Brew's Ultimate New Year's Resolution

This is really getting boring and agitating. I am thinking of changing careers but to where? I graduated journalism but I am not confident about my writing skills. I still have a lot of grammar lapses. You’ll notice them if you’ve been reading this blog.

Work is getting more toxic everyday. I don’t get to sleep or eat right anymore. And though the salary is above the usual daytime job, it’s still not enough. This job is not going to sustain the lifestyle that I have.

And Brew’s new year’s resolution: MAGTIPID. Spend less. This has been my resolution for the past few years but guess what? It’s going nowhere. I still can’t save. I can’t even change my old phone into those camera phones I have always wanted. This is so frustrating.
Plans for this year:

- I am planning to apply for a Citibank credit card. I know. This will only get me to spend so much. But still I want it so I am applying for one next month.
- I am planning to apply for phone line in Smart. I tried applying last year for Sun but with the salary I am getting, I am only eligible for plan 300 and I don’t like the phone it’s offering. So I did not puish through with it. But this time, I am getting one myself. Whatever it takes.
- I have 14 available leaves so I am going to apply for a whole week vacation probably around March. By this time I’d probably have 16 available leaves. I’ll probably go home in the province and maybe bring Robbie with me. That is, if we are still together. I do hope we’d still be. I so love him.
- I plan to lessen my spending. My ultimate new year’s resolution. I also plan to try searching other careers. Less stress and more rewarding in terms of salary. My one-year experience in the call center industry must be worth something more, right?

And like they always say, SO HELP ME GOD!

It's Ma Birthday!

First of all, as I like to say it, Meyi Kritmat! I hope you had a blast last Christmas eve coz I sure did not! Got work last Christmas and the f*cking company where I work at required its employees to go to work on their 6th day. The consequence if you don't go to work? You'll get a memo and you'll be kicked out of the company. Now isn't that neat?!

I also finished answering the employee satisfaction survey and hell did I finish it! I am not really sure if something good will happen but at least it's an avenue to release all my frustrations and angst against this company.

Enough of that! It's still Christmas and we're supposed to be happy, right?
So how did y'all spent Christmas? I am usre you had a great time.
And yes, before I forget, I just turned 23 three days ago. My birthday just passed by. I celebrated my birthday with a bang! Hahaha... I did my laundry and cleaned my room. Did a movie marathon till 4 in the morning and slept for a couple of hours then get readied for work. Hayyy...

Well next year I hope everything turns out well this coming year. I really hope so...